andy controller vs andy doer
okok, maybe i've been watching too much bryan johnson but the idea came from his separation of evening johnson.
I've been trying to think what is the root cause of my procrastination. i think the answer is the conflict between identities, which I've talked about before. but, in this case it's the andy which controlls/logically decides and the andy that actually does.
so, whenever i do a task i always find myself thinking of others things i can do. when working i think about taking a shower, games when doing homework. it's so annoying! like if i try to commit to a task my brain gets mixed into this void of thinking is this what i really want to do. often, disappearing into youtube shorts or netfixs.
recently, i also learned about the benefits / mood gains from commitment. most of our issues is the resistance to doing task whether we like it or not. i also, had a theory about habits too, where new tasks are always hard but as we get more used to it, taking less active energy to do. so when we combine these two we know that commitment over time actually is less energy than expect. when i think of commitment it actually scares me with knowing i "need" a certain level of energy to do the task. which is not true!
the more committed you get to a task the easier it gets, it's not scary. in fact, it's a super power to build strong habits so that you can do more in a day with the little energy. where the energy is spent less on overcoming routines / previous bad habits and settings good and more productive habits.
obviously, it takes time which anything takes, but if you can commit to doing anything and make it a muscle i think it will incredible impactful to your life. having energy go into the task rather than the resistance is incredible important which i think is the key to being a super person in our day in age.
so, andy controller will make choices but once i switch to andy doers i will commit my whole 100%. the hard part is actually committing to 100%! which might need the help of deep work and practice but I'm sure it gets easier.