Andy'S iter.

excuse

ahhh, i feel like i'm making excuses again. but, the issue that i'm having is does that mean I'm not into doing the goals I want. OR, is it just human nature.

the other day I saw a reel taking about a quote mentioning the idea of a warm blanket. how we're born for a purpose and not to be comfortable. is my existence to be comforted under the pleasures of the world or to accomplish meaningful impact? i don't know man.

i keep mistaken my natural instinct for comfort to be a reason that I'm not interested in this all. it is not the precise reason I should quit though.

here we know a few things. it is human nature to not want to do the hard things. the important and meaningful accomplishments are hard. resistance at the end of the day is what holds us back. the hard things are not as hard as we may think. just like gymming, it's hard when you first start but once you get the hang of it it's not hard. to maintain and not as hard as starting.

so, andy, I ask you is it what you want to do is be the best version of yourself or be in blankets all day? i think I want to be the best version. but why? can I settle? why can't I be the person in the blankets reading, drinking coffee, and napping. can I be both? can I be the person in the world that brings meaningful impact and enjoy myself. hmmm, conflicting realities again.

i got it. i need to throw all known realities in my mind to the gutter. to forget the visions or beliefs I have. to remove the preknown truths that I have always thought. i keep conflicting with what I know and I keep getting caught up aligning myself within the middle. just throw it out. none if it matters. my realities, standards, and personhood is only up to my own. which is what makes it human, to craft my own life. hmmm. i think this is it. gotta brew on the idea a little longer.