integrity
not going to lie, integrity is the only thing that is holding me up. well, the gym isn't that bad right now. it's pretty easy to go and maintain my consistency. but, when times get rough man it's hard.
the other day when i was rock climbing i fell super badly don't he wall and bruised my right foot. i didn't even realize until a few hours after the fact. it was so hard to walk down the stairs to do my laundry.
well, today i was given the choice to go to the gym or not. guess what, my self idealization of integrity had pulled through and made me go. I haven't gone yet, but i signed up for pottery so i had to go today. which is funny. I'm not sure if i truly believe in my own integrity. like, do i really care bout my principles like a person to sack my foot pain to go. like I'm a main character or something. blah blah integrity.
but, i guess it is what got me to go to the gym. can't be missing my streak man. when times are tough i can't just skip. gym everyday all day. no skipping.
i spent the last two weeks building resistance to the gym to be so low. i refuse to let go of the momentum! this is the most important part of going the gym and all my effort is built here. fuck the routine, optimal muscle growth, or whatever keening shit there is. i just got to go. lfg.