reason for good
okok, i was having a hard time wondering why i should be doing good. here is what i have so far.
pretty much, for me one of the best feelings is the human connection. to be honest, life without other people is not worth. everyday i spend to either help or serve some sort of person whether for school, buying grocies, or just mundane conversions. it is in these interactions that i enjoy living. ya hobbies are fun, living is fun i guess, but without the people and community much of why i enjoy living is pointless.
p1, the community, people, and human interaction are at the core what i enjoy about living in this world.
so then in the next 60 years of my existence what should i really be doing then. i need to get a job so i can eat, a roof over my head, and keep myself busy. what purpose or joy can i associate myself with to get myself busy. damn, 60 years is a long time. sure, by the end of it I'll feel a little sad but in reference to my 20s it is long.
i think this is where people are different. some may want to be a model or an example, but what i want is impact. why? this is the hard part? my original reason was the hated feeling of being useless. but, is this half-baked? i think so. to be impactful, to make a difference is such a weird thing for someone to want to do. would life be better just playing games and in blankets?
off the bat, it's a little sad to play video games all day. man, is this just cause i want to live a life of stimulus? where my primary goals is just feeling good? is this not the same of just doing drugs all day, but the only difference is one does not place a threat on my health. gotta brew on this one a little longer...
anyway, back to impact. is it that they want impact, or are the goals they strive for naturally impactful? most tools are founded through their own needs, which they deem useful in their own lives. which eventually, is used by others in the world for similar reasons as the person who made it. so, they weren't looking to be impactful but to really solve a goal.
p2, impact isn't really the target but a consequence of their mission.
I'm trying to find a reason why I want to do good things. but, in truth i don't think anyone really does these things because of the sense of doing "good". we probably do it because of a mission that is deeply intertwined with them. which becomes their anchor of reason.
p3, everything is mission driven, there wont be a reason why we want todo it. place the mission at the core of what drive the motivation to continue. having touched the souls of others is good enough for me.
wait, so the community is humans, my mission is helping people find fulfillment. why do i care? cause i feel like I'm not on the right path and want to feel fulfilled through the things i do on this planet. even, if it's not anything crazy. people never know their impact on others and to know your own value is an amazing value that people should have.